Immortality

can we ever stop this crazy roller coaster ride called life? More over, do we want to? A lot of us still search for the ways of becoming immortal, some have actually succeeded in a sad twisted kind of way.no they are not in any way alive physically, but they live on.
what I am trying to say is, who doesn't know of Jack the Ripper or of say Vlad Dracula? And wasn't he the one to truly start the whole immortal vampire business? No not exactly him but brahm stoker, who portayed his character in his books, that later let to even videos and comics ( stoker wasn't exactly the first there either, but the best known)
of coarse being some phyco killer is not the only way to live on, we survive by our works also, our books, poems, every written word, that is us. Maybe we won't be completely remembered that way. Some people don't even look at the author of the work, to them the author is just another nameless faceless person. Who wants to be that? But in this world it is really the best we have, at least maybe we have a chance to influence another
a chance, a very small hope, that someone will find ,of all the others, our work out there
my fate-if you believe, or chance maybe someone will
can they find me, before I am just another memory?
..One that has been forgotten
bone turned to ash?
I can only hope

wilted flowers

fade
they don't see you here
death
your living tomb
hope
of no existance
thoughts
of no excape

mourn
your soul in peril
live
your only life
fade
away like wilted flowers
since
no one know your strife



locked away forever in your silent tomb
in this world, for you, there was never any room....

Feel

I feel tired today, which is strange since last night I actually had a decent sleep, by decent I mean I was asleep before three a.m.
but at least I only woke up a few times instead of several times every hour,which has become normal for me.
I also have this very strange feeling on top of it, I don't dare even try to explain it. It's one of those feelings that can make a person question their entire existence.
I feel like I am always at battle with myself part of me doesn't mind fading away and the other well defiantly does.

ghost

That is how i feel sometimes, like i am simply doomed to fade away. very few people even know me in the rw.
i dislike this, but i feel there is nothing i can do about it. i can't keep friends, eventually all break away from me.
so i am not hopeful in long-distance relationships either.i feel alone in this world.

And another thing, completly off topic. i might be able to write whole books, but when it comes to blogs, well
i am unable to ramble on like so many others that i have seen. first, i am too lazy to read long blogs anyway, so i don't want to have anyone suffer through mine, since it should be quite obvious that i have nothing of any real importance to say, at least that is how i feel about it.

I wish there was more going on in this head of mine sometimes, i really do. but there is not.so i just have to pull out what comes to me randomly. it is kind of how my life is anyway. a bunch of random things pulled together.

for now this is all that this ghost has to say